This shit right here……

Well I haven’t wrote in while. I don’t really know what to write about anymore so I’m gonna try and write a story. It started with a boy and girl (typical right) His reputation and her shyness. Or maybe his distance and her willingness. Or Her strive for everything to be perfect her want to have everything jealousy of what others had. I mean I might as well be THAT girl I try not to but I guess it just doesn’t work. Thinking beauty is everything ehh not so much for her it’s more of what is on the inside no no no I’m sorry I’m not gonna lie. The reason someone notices someone else in the first place is looks I mean you cannot say “I didn’t choose him and or her for their looks” because that’s a lie you would’ve never tried if it wasn’t about looks in the first place. Am I right or am I right?? I guess this really isn’t a “story” story but hey I’m trying. I honestly try a lot of stuff -not being shy didn’t work, being pretty i mean i guess it worked as people tell me, and etc… I’ve been told I’m a lot of stuff like a hoe clingy oh just today my friend was asked if I was obsessed with a boy I USED TO like oh yea sure cause I still kinda like him or that he’s on my mind sometimes means I’m obsessed when I haven’t talk to him in a good damn time yea sure people whatever you say. I mean right now I have no clue where I’m going with this but it’s venting so might as well go on. Alright so where was I oh yea uhmm I’m BI oo surprising like isn’t everyone I don’t do the whole omg I’m gay one day then as straight as a stick the next no it’s no fab bull shit like everyone else. I’m am honestly attracted to females as much as guys. I didn’t choose it I know I know people say the bible says God doesn’t like gays but if he didn’t like them why in the fuck did he make them. Cause he made each and everyone of us individually gets you thinking right. I Like school weird right like who really enjoys school for school instead of friends No I like the stuff I learn like the moon I LOVE THE MOON…. Haha I’m the pickle in the punch (: Welp I’m starting to run out of things to say pshh like i even knew what to write in the first place I’m just babbling soo yea uh kay? Kay buh bye now (: I’ll be back soon I promise

whataboutbecca:

aidan would suck at this

Indirect

Why does everyone want me to do everything? Do it yourself I mean damn. Grow up and figure your shit out on your own. I hope you know it gets really fucking annoying. Getting stuck in the middle of all your bullshit. It’s summer time I ain’t gonna be in no types of drama. Be free and if you don’t like what I’m saying kiss my white ass thank-you have a good day. #indirect

Kill the white Rabbit

I’m late, I’m late for a very important date. Turn back the clock they think not. Can’t stay to pray. Lose myself in this day. Running through the forest hearing my footsteps. I keep running thinking you’ll catch me. I look back so damn scared that you will be right there. I scream help me as if it’s a dream that I can wake up from all this, but I can’t . This is why I’m late very late to this important date. So take my advice kill the white rabbit.

Thinking about you

Knowing you purposely ignore me kills every hop I fucking have. I know you like her I know you LOVE her but she’s gonna sit there and do to you what your doing to me. Consatntly wanting you to listen to what I have to say.

  I absolutely hate liking you still sucks sooooo much. I want you to know: I like you, he doesn’t deserve you and I probably but I’d be more of the girl to try and work it out.I just want all this to be better.

Starting over

Staring at this blank screen. Thinking of what to write kills me. All these things come to mind and one just doesn’t sound right. To me writing and music(singing) is my complete escape. Crying myself to sleep once in a while because that day made me break. Sometimes I disgust myself. Sitting and saying you broke my heart. No, not anymore I’m starting over. I think it’s just the thing I need. If someone wants to get to know me they can. I’ll sit and wait, do what I want to. I’m free and independent. I like females. I can’t stand some people. But you see all of this is ohkay because I know I’m not perfect I know some people see many things different. And I know that I will be judged for who I am but I see myself as a person just like the rest of you. No one is better than another their self. I just hate to know that you see me as demonized when you don’t know me just because of who I like. So I figured out I’m living my own life. I hope you have a very nice day thank you (:

Oh my god, I can’t believe I’m doing this. Lets see uhmm I liked you, a lot. I don’t think I can stop caring about you but you probably never cared for me. I know we were basically nothing but you kinda made me feel special. I know You love her because she’s the only one you stopped talking to me.

Fucked the fuck up!

You know shit hits the fan when the truth comes out. You know two girls love you but you can’t choose between them. You kind of disgust me. To be leading on two females like this. At one moment saying your my one and only then then next telling the other she’s your future. Boy stand up and get your shit together. You need to take a step back and realize what the fuck your doing. Messing with someones emotions is pathetic. I wish you could take a look through both of their eye’s then come talk to me about this fucked up mess. I mean damn who in the hell do you think you are. You think your bad like you can do what you want but that’s not the case. Boy come to my hood that way you might as well take a gun to yourself. You mess with these men females they will take out a special order on you. The last thing I gotta say ” Is tighten the fuck up little boy!!!!”

I’ll make you happy <3

You don’t need her. I can make sparks fly through your body. Every time we touch you lose your breath. Our bodies moving as one. Baby I make you scream. The movements I make keep you entertained. Now you know I can’t be tamed. I will promise to love and cherish you. Make you my number one. I hope this will be done.